Have you ever wondered what your name would be if God decided to change it like he did Paul’s or Jacob’s?
I love the story of when Jacob wrestled with God and came out with a limp. Just like our name gives us our identity, so does our walk.
Jacob was about to come face to face with Esau. The last time they had been together, Esau had threatened to take Jacob’s life. Jacob knew he had been changed by God, yet when he came closer and closer to Esau, he was reminded of his old identity as a deceiver, a traitor. and a thief.
Before Jacob’s encounter with Esau, God wanted to affirm in him that he had a new identity and he had to completely let go of the name he had before. So Jacob wrestled.
Just like anyone who runs into someone of the their past, you begin to remember your old identity, and what you perceive they think of you.
The story is in Genesis in the 32nd chapter, Jacob wrestled all night with a man and demanded a blessing. Something he previously would have stolen.
27 The man asked him, “What is your name?”
“Jacob,” he answered.
28 Then the man said, “Your name will no longer be Jacob, but Israel, [a] because you have struggled with God and with men and have overcome.”
Jacob never walked the same because his hip was damaged. But, his limp marked his wrestle with God. Our wrestle with God brings out our true Identity.
Labels come from places we have walked or things people have said of us. But they are a scary thing because once they are attached you can take on the their identity. Labels can change the way you think of yourself and they can limit you.
When we don’t know who we are it will affect where we go and what we do!
If you want to change your identity and get your own limp you may have to wrestle God for it!
When you come out, you will be true to your new name. You wont have to walk like anyone else, or copy the way someone else limps.
Sometimes people will want to straighten your limp because it makes them uncomfortable. They will see how you have changed, they will notice your new confidence in God, and it may unsettle them in their own comfort zone.
I have changed and definitely have my own limp. I have a new name…and no I won’t say!