I’m on stand-by. That’s how I feel right now. I live…on stand-by. I am be-ing or “getting ready” to do “something”.
Its ok though. I am not complaining, just stating my thoughts on my present reality. I just unpacked everything from our trip to St. Louis. Five suitcases is a lot to unpack!. Well, 4. My hubbs suitcase is still sitting by his bedside. I think he’s just made up in his mind he is not unpacking until he has to pack again. That is coming in a few days. Im ok with it. I have stretched. I have NEW capacity for a lot of things. Packing and unpacking is just what we do. When I was growing up, I packed bags like maybe twice a year. Once for vacation and once for the holidays. Now, it is my job. For real though, I like my life just the way it is. I have the grace to do this, and while I have the grace, I shall carry on!
The word capacity caught my attention last year. Think about what you have to manage in your world. Do you feel overwhelmed by it or a surge like you are riding the tip of a wave with a force under you. I wont say I dont have days I feel overwhelmed, but I have discovered why I was feeling overwhelmed.
The feelings that overwhelmed me were something like this:
By the time I get around to doing what I want to do, Im too tired to do it!
It wasn’t the kids that overwhelmed me, or the high paced schedule we keep. Not even the tasks of running a household. It was the inner turmoil of knowing there is more to produce with my life and the desire to do it before I’m empty nesting.
God has been revealing to me the increased capacity I now have to manage things. I live by multi-tasking. I feel like this year I am managing more than I ever have yet I have this extra hand reaching out for more. Once you change your mindset, it becomes exciting to see how God can fill your hands. You can trust He will only give you what you have the capacity to handle. But He will also allow frustration to push your capacity larger if you allow it.
Ecc 9:10 Whatever your hands find to do, do it with your might.
What are some things you desire to make room for?